Bad Decisions

It's 8:10 (I pursuaded myself to blog for 5 minutes before cracking open the books), I have two finals that I've barely touched base on and did I mention they're both a day away? But somehow I've justified it with myself that it's okay if I do an avocado hair mask tonight because my hair needs it. :) I justify a lot of bad decisions in the same manner.

Lately hair care has been a top top priority for me, especially now that I've convinced myself that I'm balding (or just an extremely, extremely heavy shedd-er(???) ew. ) So I've purchased one of the Marc Anthony straight hair/heat/protective products (you have to look really carefully...some are heat tools mist which merely give you shine, some are straightening sprays to facilitate straighter results...) which I apply to the roots of my hair section by section before straightening. I've used this three times now and it's working pretty well, but I learned the hard way that A LITTLE GOES A LONG WAY.

Anyhow, my new obsession with haircare is what leads me to smelling and looking like someone who has tragically lost a food fight involving lots of avocado, egg yolk and olive oil. Credits to bubzbeauty@youtube for the recipe and tutorial. This is my second time and I find it makes my hair a lot softer, gives it more shine, anddd makes my hair feel a lot stronger. After perming my hair twice, chemically straightening it once and all the times I've dyed my hair...it really left me picking at straws. Literally.

I'm trying to change hair! Forgive me, I'm trying to make up for the lack of nutrients.

Monster

@Soompi

"Sometimes you climb out of bed in the mornng and you think, I'm not going to make it, but you laugh inside - remembering all the times you felt that way." - Charles Bukowski

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I am utterly disgusted with my behavior trailing behind like a shameful existence all Fall term long. School should not be an excuse for my flaring tempers and irrational actions, I'm sorry I had to put you through that. Constant streams of assignments, papers, quizes, more papers, with taunting and snide feedback has pulled my patience (if any) taut an left me nothing better than a ticking time bomb.

I am seriously burned out by homework for this semester, I feel like all I know how to do is sit in front of my laptop and tap away paper after paper. Yet, each time I open a blank document I feel incompetent to fill it in.

One.Last.Paper. I'm only 2 pages into 10.

Social Pressure

"The queston in ife is not whether you get knocked down. You will. The question is, are you ready to get up and fight for what you believe in." - Dan Quayle
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What is up with the social pressure on getting the H1N1 vaccine? People are honestly over their minds about this whole ordeal, I really think individuals are entitled to what should and shoul not be entering their bloodsteams. I never thought the day would come that I would need to get this stupid shot because as far as anyone I've spoken to about this, I am quite the anti. But I am apparently getting the vaccine tomorrow at 7pm (I honestly hope something drastic happens clini so we can't get the vaccine.) and the ONLY reason why I am even doing this is because of our travel plans in may because apparently when you enter another country they will check whether you have gotten the vaccine or not and if not, you will be charged $60US to recieve one.

So it's a die-die situation. If this is even true. I was just discussing this earlier on with my sister about how everyone is rushing to get this vaccine when the side effects aren't for sure determined, and when it honestly feels like they're only using us as lab rats. When did they become so smart to invent a prevention vaccine in half a years time?

Ugh. If I should die from this I blame society.

I recieved a ridiculous e-mail from my dean titled "Can you afford to be sick for the exams?" To that I say, I positively CAN NOT afford to be sick FROM the shot during the next 3 weeks. I skimmed the e-mail and thought HOW RIDICULOUS that he has to resort to threats "It's out there wating for you." Thanks bud, but A HELL OF A LOT OF THINGS are out there waiting for us.

I'm only doing this for Korea and Hk.

Anyway, I apologize for the angry blog content. I should really start writing my essay which is due tomorrow (well I'm telling myself that) so I can start my assignment 4 for the triangle lady, prepare for my final grou presentation for triangle lady on Monday, start my term paper (30%) which is due monday, another exam on the last day of school. And then 3 days grace to sudy for two finals which happily land on the same, jolly Friday.

mmmm school. Doncha love it.

Take Hold

The Red Balloon: "When a dream takes hold of you, what can you do? You can run with it, let it run your life, or let it go and think for the rest of your life about what might have been."
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Summer, come back already I'm beginning to miss the green grass, cool breeze, OD-ing on Avenue Diner&Buffalo Cafe, dinners at Vero, beef carpaccio with summer truffles at Blink, a trio of creme brulee at Tribune, fresh oysters at Sushi Club, chirashi don at Wa's, takoyaki at Shikijye, mussels at Cilantro....all of my favorite food adventures. Maybe I'll post pictures in a later post.

I miss summer food dearly, now I have to settle for MacHall delicacies.

Summer, I miss green grass park picnics, weekly movies, contributing to the growing obesesity in the duck population at the park, photography days (must buy 120mm film for the coming summer)

Anyhow, am writing back in reality and it's time to continue writing about Women and Religion! Yay for essays.

P.S. I need a soy red tea latte. nom nom.

&&Until Next Time